LOS ANGELES (AP) – Chrissy Teigen wrote a heartfelt message about the recent loss of her third child with husband John Legend.
Teigen delivered the essay in a Medium post on Tuesday. It was her first public response since she and Legend announced the loss of their son Jack in a heartbreaking social media post with several photos on Sept. 30.
In Tuesday’s post, Teigen wrote that her doctors diagnosed her with partial placental abruption. She announced her pregnancy with their child in August.
“I’ve always had placental problems,” she wrote. “I had to deliver Miles a month earlier because his stomach wasn’t getting enough food from my placenta. But this was my first abruption. “
34-year-old Teigen said she had been given bags of blood transfusions in the hospital, but that did not help support the fluid around her son. After a few nights, she said she knew it was time to say goodbye.
“He just wouldn’t survive this, and if it took any longer, I couldn’t,” she said.
Teigen said her decision to take and post photos of the trial was met with some support and criticism. She said Legend was “very hesitant” to take the photos, but felt the need to share their story.
“I can’t express how little I care that you hate the pictures,” she wrote. “I don’t care if it’s something you wouldn’t have done. I lived it, I chose to do it, and above all, these pictures are just for the people who have experienced this or who are curious enough to wonder what such a thing is like. These photos are only for the people who need them. The thoughts of others don’t matter to me. “
Teigen urged people to share their stories and “please be nice to those who pour out their hearts.”